12/1/11—Checking In With Our Chakras

Today's Draw: Two of Wands from the Tarot of Transformation—Healing Sexual Energy. Is there some aspect in which you feel blocked or restricted at this time of your life? Do have a certain chakra that is always giving you trouble? Is there a part of your pain body you might be over-identifying with?

Before I begin, I want to say that this is one of my favorite decks. It has a soft, supportive, feminine energy to it and it gives very deep readings. I've used this deck more than once to receive messages from deceased loved ones. Shortly after she died, I asked for a message from my dog Passion (aka Pashie-Bear Stinkus) and the card I drew from this deck was the Seven of Discs. It showed a spirit bear watching over a hibernating mommy bear with two cubs in her belly. 

OK, so Pashie Bear's message was that she was in spirit watching over me and my two babies while we slept! She wanted me to know I had an alpha girl dog up in heaven covering her back. And that she sees her brother and the "new dog" and watches over them alongside me. On top of that, the card is called "Incubation" and Passion and I had spoken the night before she died about how I would see her again. That she could wait and play in the afterlife and know I'd see her again. So the card was also telling me that she was waiting and knew I was waiting and we'd see each other again when the time was right. OMG, could one card possibly both fill and break my heart more?

But I digress. This entry is about the Two of Wands. And in this deck, that card speaks about second chakra sexual energy. The book reminds us that sex with a lover is just one way to express this energy. We can express this erotic, creative and passionate energy in our love of dance, nature, language...pretty much everything. And just because we're not in a sexual relationship doesn't mean we should shut off this chakra.

The book goes on to talk about how most people have experienced some sort of sexual wounding, whether it came from something like a lover's rejection or from something more intense, like sexual abuse. And how we have to go into the pain body, feel it and heal it. But then it warned not to get lost in the pain body or make your identity out of it. You have to come back to physical body to heal and find joy. 

OK, that's a lot to think about. I've known a lot of people who have made that pain body their identity, myself included at one point. Maybe they share their sexual wounds too soon. Or they act in self-destructive ways. Or they just go cold. But there's more than just one flavor of pain body.

It's been a long time since I've been in a relationship. That has to do with a lot of factors. Not sexual wounding, though, I don't think. Or if it does, I'm not conscious of it. My reasons range from a lack of male interest to, I have to admit, something more along the lines of emotional or spiritual wounding. Part of me wants a relationship. Part of me can't be bothered. And part of me, frankly, is scared...scared that I'll fall into the same patterns of the past. I'd rather be alone and happy than miserable and coupled. While I believe "content and coupled" exists, I'm suspicious of it. So, yeah, I suppose I have some issues in this area. 

Anyway, the good news is that whenever my reiki person (energy healer) checks my chakras (which is monthly at minimum) my sacral chakra (the sexual one) is always open. The bad news is that sometimes my heart chakra fluctuates between open and closed. Which is actually a fair representation of my attitude toward bringing romantic love into my life.

This is probably all gobbletygook for some of you. Eastern thought is that there are energy centers or vortexes called chakras that run throughout our body. The seven major ones run through the center of our body starting at the base of the spine, all the way up through the crown of our head. Each chakra deals with a particular thing, such as survival, sex, creativity, personal power, fears, love, communication, intuition and god consciousness. Each also corresponds to different organs and functions of the body. So if you're having a particular kind of emotional or physical issue, your corresponding chakra could be closed or restricted or in need of some sort of healing. 

I think we all pull back at one time or another in one area or another. We may not always be willing to give or receive love. We may have times we're more fearful than others. We might, on occasion, give our personal power away. Nobody walks through life with all their chakras open all of the time. We all have places where we feel constricted or where the energy doesn't flow quite freely. 

Take a moment to just scan your body in silence. Do you sense a knot or lump anywhere? Alternately, scan your life. What sorts of experiences give you pause...what do you have to "be in the mood for" in order to do? Where are you feeling restricted and restrictive? Whatever it is, become conscious of it. Recognize it. Only then will you be able to begin healing it.