Weekend Reading: Knight of Cups from the Infinite Visions. Let someone charm you this weekend. Let romance carry you away. That excitement and thrill is only temporary, so immerse yourself in it while you can. And if you're married or coupled, this weekend would be a good time to do something dreamy for your partner and remind them why they chose you in the first place.
Today's Draw: 9 of Fire from Osho Zen. Are you feeling overwhelmed and mentally exhausted? Are you overthinking something to the point of exhaustion? Are you feeling spiritually impoverished?
This card shows a man in tatters, drawn and exhausted, overseeing the complex, chaotic machinery of his mind. The card bears the word "exhaustion".
As I consider how this applies to my life, thinking that it doesn't, it occurs to me that yo...u can be in this state without even realizing it...a state where your mind is discombobulated and distant. If, on the other hand, you're overthinking something, you're probably turning the same thoughts over and over in your head, trying to make sense of them. Either way, the answer lies in breaking out of that habit. Do something creative. Change your venue. Howl at the moon. Just do something to break the pattern. Because you're not doing anyone any good if you're not present.
So what's on your mind? I have a few things, mostly work related. But the dogs and I are going to go someplace different today and I'll probably journal. That always helps me. As does being in a different setting. How about you?
Today's Draw: Birthday Edition. Beyond Illusion from the Osho Zen. Who are you really?
Today's card is a blessing for me, because the Beyond Illusion card asks us not to look outside of ourselves to see who we are, but to look within. This has special meaning to me today because I experienced a bit of heartbreak recently and ...felt bad about my role in all of that. But the person within knows where my intentions were, even if it didn't appear that way to them.
As the author's commentary states, "The card reminds us not to look outside for what is real, but to look within. When we focus on externals, we too often get caught up in judgments - this is good, this is bad, I want this, I don't want that. These judgments keep us trapped in our illusions, our sleepiness, our old habits and patterns."
This dovetails nicely with my beautiful Note from the Universe (tut.com) today...."Curiously, while you're discovering the God within you, Tierney, I'm discovering the Tierney Sadler within me." At the root of it, that's who we all are...part of the universe, part of God. Beautiful. Whole. And perfect just the way we are. SO what I needed to hear today.
Today's Draw: Page of Cups from the Llewellyn Tarot. What good news have you heard lately? On the other side of the spectrum, what sensitivities have been triggered in you lately?
I need to make this quick today because of some deadline pressure. But the page of cups usually brings messages of romance and love. I'm not on the good news side of the stick today. The sensitivities that have been triggered in me are aban...donment issues. I don't like being left hanging. When I was little I remember one time that I shopping with my mother and she asked me to go into a store and get some milk, while she went into another store. We were supposed to meet out front. And she forgot me. She drove home without me. I don't like being forgotten or made to feel insignificant. So that's where I am today. :/
Today's Draw: Ace of Wands from the Steampunk (pearlescent mini #144...haha). What are you putting your passion and energy towards these days? What are you able to see more clearly now than you have ever seen before? What are you giving the green light to in your life right now?
The Ace of Wands signifies an upshot of creative energy, passion, inspiration and clarity in your life. This particular one shows the top of a statue's head sticking out of the sand and a new icon being built behind him...taller and able to... see farther. The wand is an umbrella that protects from the elements. To me this says that the fire of passion of inspiration acts as an anesthetic to dull the pain of the work that needs to be done in creating something new.
For me, the answer to all the questions is relationship. I've been on a solitary journey toward spiritual and personal enlightenment for a long time now. And while traveling that path alone is valuable, it's only half of the journey. So the time is right for me to tackle....er, um....meet some guy who will accompany me for the next leg of my journey. Of course, with that, comes some pain from losing the freedoms and comfort of the old way of being. So the passion of a new love will dull that pain. Interesting how that works, isn't it? Anyway, that's what I'm giving the green light to these days. Hopefully the universe will comply. ;)
Today's Draw: The Devil from Infinite Visions. What holds power over you? What limits you? What keeps you from being totally free?
Many people will read today's questions and say "nothing holds power over me, I'm totally free." And those will be the people most bound to something in their lives because they are not even aware of the things that tether them...financial ...responsibilities, familial connections, addictions, defeating thoughts, memories from the past...the list goes on and on.
Even people who are single and live off the grid in the wilderness are bound to their wood chopping and food gathering...the essentials of survival. Simply by being alive and human, we are bound. But like the layers of an onion, those who are unaware of the things that limit or contain them are the most bound....and as we become aware and shed the attachments that don't hinge upon survival, we begin to experience freedom.
So think about the thoughts, behaviors and matters that hold you today. If you have to have a glass of wine with dinner every night, think of how that may or may not hold you. If you have a certain wake up ritual that never changes, think about how you're attached to that. The more we think of these things, the more we see that they're not as important as we think they are.
I've been bound to a shame around my body image all my life. I struggle against it and thus, never seem to make progress. Last night I was thinking how tired I am of the ups and downs of that...the decision to take control, then the acquiescing of that control...over and over again. What I really want is to be free of it. And while I imagine I'll never be totally free of it, just as we're never totally free of anything, I can certainly take back my power. And that's a start. What comes up for you when you think about this?