This deck has been out a couple of years, but I've just discovered it. The weirdest thing...the deck arrived all curved up like a deck that had been shuffled poker-style for a long time. You know what I mean? They get all curved in the middle? Anyway, it's a nice little deck. Playing card size. The art is "dark" and non-traditional. The meanings are non-traditional, too. This card takes the place of Temperance in the major arcana, but it means pretty much the opposite (according to the e-lwb). This is a card of stagnation and blockage. As the book says, "The elements and life move around it, grow from it, decay upon it, but it goes nowhere."
Ever felt that way? Or ever felt that way in one area of your life? Like maybe you have particularly bad love life. Or a crappy job. Or a bad social life. Yeah, me too.
Sometimes you just give up and sit down a little while, intending to get back up and try again. And then you never do. And before you know it, there's moss growing on your north side.
Sometimes you decide (or convince yourself) that you don't even want the part of your life that's gone stagnant back. "I'm too old to change careers now." "People my age have no time for a social life." "What would I do with a virile stud in my life, anyway?"
If this resonates with any of you, it's time to seek help...haha.
You know, yesterday's post talked about aspen trees and how if you want to build something strong and enduring, it takes time. This one aspen colony in Utah is older than mankind. Literally. It didn't get that way by stressing itself, making dramatic moves or running itself into the ground. It just did what comes naturally for it. It grew slowly and steadily in its own time. Shed its unhealthy parts when it was time. Pushed up new shoots when needed.
If you feel stuck right now, you can do the same. You can start by changing just one small thing. Google that career you were interested in and read the latest news in that field, for example. Then think up some other small move you can make. Then another. You don't have to do it all at once. And you don't always have to be productive. And you get to screw up along the way. It's a marathon, not a sprint.
When you're stuck in a rut, that's the most important thing to know. There's no deadline. You don't have to make any broad strokes. You don't even need a defined goal. Just turn your head ever so slightly toward the light. And that's enough for today.
Particularly good words for me to read right now. Baby steps .. and just keep going. I have decided some parts of my life I don't want back, that, indeed, I am fine without. Perhaps not so true. Will be using some long unused creativity this weekend and see how it goes. Doesn't even have to be perfect. :))
ReplyDeleteNo, it doesn't. :) It really doesn't. For me, the process is far more fulfilling than the end product. So who cares about the end product? :) I needed to hear this message, too, right now.
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