Tuesday, March 15, 2011

3/15/11—Celebrating Wishes

Today's Draw: Nine of Cups from the fabulous, new Wizard's Tarot by Corrine Kenner. What is worthy of celebration in your life right now? If you could be granted one wish for yourself, what would it be?
This Nine of Cups shows a person toasting us with one of the cups. What are they toasting?

For me, they are toasting an emotional stability that I wouldn't have had six months ago. Circumstances over the past week or so of my life would have... thrown me into sadness and depression back then. But an unfortunate attack of menopausal mood swings caused me to reach out for something to stabilize my moods last year. And now things don't seem so dire anymore. Even things that would upset pretty much anyone. And I've been enjoying that.

Like many people, I've suffered from low-grade depression most of my life. Nothing debilitating. I've always managed to be happy off and on. Balanced off and on. But little things would sometimes take hold in me and not let go. And it's those things...big or small...that have less of an impact on my life now. I asked my doctor if that meant it was stripping away who I am and the response surprised. She said "this is who you are without the illness (depression)". This is who I am. And that makes so much sense to me, but I've never thought of it that way. This is who I am when you take the depression out of the equation. So that's what I'm celebrating right now.

The Nine of Cups is also traditionally known as the "wish card". And if I could make one wish, it would be that I would be more motivated in my diet and exercise plan. That's all on me, though. Maybe the cosmos could help, but I can make that happen myself, as is the case with most wishes. What I would really wish for, however, would be for someone else...a good friend who I hope will allow himself to find out who he is without his illness, assuming that's the path he and his soul want for themselves. That's the thing about wishes and luck. As woo-woo as I am, I believe we can be helped on the path to fulfillment by energies outside us. But for the most part, I believe that wishes and luck are made by ourselves.

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