Wednesday, September 7, 2011

9/8/11—Noticing Emotional Growth

Today's Draw: The Ace of Chalices from the Wheel of the Year tarot. Have you noticed lately that you've grown emotionally in some area of your life? Did you consciously pursue that growth? Or did it just kind of happen?

Yesterday's card was a repeat from a couple of days before and so is today's. On Monday we got the Ace of Water, which is the same as Chalices or Cups in the tarot. That day we spoke of finding your personal holy grail. The Ace of Cups is usually about a new love, harmony or an uprush of emotion. But it can also signify a time of emotional growth. 

Technically, every moment we're alive is a time of emotional growth. But sometimes you suddenly realize you're no longer the same person in a certain way as how you used to be. It seems like it happened overnight, but it's really a process. And it can happen whether you consciously intend it or not. 

Recently I've noticed, for example, that I'm not as anxious about certain types of confrontation. I always try to be careful of other peoples' feelings regardless, but I'm no longer so nervous about how they'll respond. I was watching a show on TV last night and saw a woman police officer be all tough and sure of herself in a confrontation with another officer and I thought to myself "how come people on TV are comfortable and collected during confrontation? That doesn't happen in real life." 

Then it occurred to me about my recent thing and how I was calm and straight and non-judgmental and loving in the way I delivered the message (at least in my mind I was). Now I'll admit I didn't manage to say everything I wanted to say because I was a little nervous...I could have lost a client. But I did pretty good. And I haven't second-guessed myself. And I'm not concerned about losing the client. It was a victory of sorts. Still a ways to go in that regard, but doing well. 

Anyway, emotional growth is always part of my plan, but I never thought to myself "got to work on my confrontation style." It just happened and, for that, I'm grateful. What kind of growth have you noticed in your life lately?

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