Sunday, November 6, 2011

11/7/11—Honoring Passages in Your Life

Today's Draw: The World from the Fantasyland Tarot. What phase—big or small—has recently come to an end in your life? Do generally recognize and acknowledge the passages in your life? Are you missing a chance to celebrate?

Today's adorable tarot comes compliments of my buddy Stephen Winick. He brought me back this majors-only deck from Taiwan so I could have something nobody else had. Now THAT's love. (Though I can't help but think he was trying to tell me something with the deck's name—Fantasyland.)

The World is about successful completion. It could indicate a moment in your life when you feel like everything has fallen into place. It could be the completion of a project or matter that's occupied your time. Or it could be the end of a larger cycle in your life, like childhood. I kind of view it like a pause between inhale and exhale—in this brief moment, you've reached a point of achievement. The world stops spinning momentarily so you can enjoy this moment of fulfillment...the moment before you step out of completion and into a new beginning. You're both the old you and the new you in the same moment.

Most people who know me would agree that I'm a capable, confident, independent woman. I've carved my path without a alone, live alone, that kind of thing. And it works for me. I wouldn't have it any other way. But it can be both a blessing and a curse. Because if I can't do it myself, it has a tendency to never get done. And by "it", I mean fixing a drippy faucet, that kind of thing. So if it's not an all-out emergency, I'll just live with the drip, drip until I can't take it anymore. Or I'll devise a work-around that I can justify. When my dishwasher broke, I hand washed dishes for quite some time, telling myself I was saving energy and enjoying the meditative therapy of washing dishes by hand...haha.

I was raised by a man who could fix EVERYTHING, so I never learned to call for help. I don't think there was ever an outside repair person in our house. Obviously, you just pick up the phone and call someone....haha. But inside me, a whole "issue" happens. I have to research the options. I have to think on it. I have to avoid it and hide from it. And, ultimately, I have to be so sick of living without the broken thing that I finally pick up the phone and make the dreaded call. Such a simple thing, but it gets me every time. Like many or most "independent women", I don't know how to ask for help or admit to needing it.

So, while I have no issues making big, bold moves in my career and my life, the stupidest, easiest things tend to trip me up. One of them, as some of you know, is a mental block around my dogs. Kizzie is 7 and he was a puppy the last time I left my dogs in someone else's care overnight. For a while it was because I really just didn't want to be without them. Then it became about how they're so un-used to being without me, seeing as how we're together 24/7. Then it became about the same insanity that drives my avoidance of calling repairmen. And, well, long story short, that cycle came to an end yesterday. At least regarding my dogs.

See the two babies in the card? The one with the colorful mane around his neck is Kizzie and the one with the mischievous horns is Magick. And I'm the lady in the skirt who has fallen away out of the picture. And Keith, my doggie babysitter, is the angel who is whisking them away for a non-mommy experience...kind of like having a social life all their own.

Over the years, there have been things I've wanted to do, but didn't because I didn't want to leave the dogs for one reason or another. The solutions always existed and were always available to me, but I wasn't ready to seek them. I could always justify that I'd rather spend time with them. And while I'll always rather spend time with them, now I have more flexibility to do things I've always wanted to do. This solution is better for everyone involved. And now I've made the step, I'll be able to make it again. 

So it's the end of certain limitations—and excuses—in my life. And the beginning of new options. We easily have hundreds of these moments over the course of a lifetime. I could probably think of more than a dozen passages from old ways to new ways in this year alone. Big ones and small ones, important ones and goofy ones. And the bulk of them went by unnoticed and unacknowledged. This World card comes to tell us to sit up and take notice, because each is not just a celebration, but also a sacred moment in our soul's journey. So what such moment have you experienced lately?

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